SOOOOO TIRED AND DISCOURAGED.

I've been back on the walker for several days and don't think I'll be able to go back to the cane any time soon.  I go back to see the orthopedic surgeon next month.  By then, Hubby may be shoving me through the hospital in a wheel chair.  I imagine that the insurance probably has requirements that must be met before there can be another knee replacement.  I sure hope I can meet those requirements before too much longer - this much pain really grinds down a person's will to keep going, especially when there's no end in sight.

 

Now that the stomach guy has me drinking all this water (three liters a day), of course I have to get up and down so much more often and that's the hardest thing for me to do - the getting up and down part, not the water-drinking.

 

I've been reading an old book about the county where we live and the towns in that county.  I believe it was published in 1976 and covers the time between 1910 and 1976.  There are a lot of wonderful old pictures.  Also, my grandfather, my dad and at least one or two of his brothers and sisters are mentioned in the book, which makes it more interesting.  It's mostly a lot of dry facts copied from the various censuses, plus lists of the county officials, the members of local clubs and service organizations, members of the school board, the ministers for the town churches and things like that.  There are even lists of the businesses in town and who owned them for each decade covered in the book.  A person who has never lived here or who has no relatives here would never be able to stay awake past the first chapter!

 

There's a great picture of downtown with the courthouse smack-dab in the middle.  The bok doesn't bother to mention the year the picture was taken, but you can see the horse-rail on all four sides of the courthouse and the brick streets all the way around it as well.  That's pretty cool.  I can recognize many of the businesses and homes shown in the picture as well.  My grandparents' house (since torn down and made into a parking lot for the courthouse annex) and an old brick apartment house I can remember living in when I was 2 1/2 or 3 years old stands on a corner.  That building was torn down years ago and is still an empty lot.  The book is had to read, but I'm going to happily plow through the whole thing.  Well, maybe not happily ...

 

I'm too damn tired to read back through this entry to check for errors as I usually do.  Chalk it up to cross-eyed effort to even stay awake.

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Comments (19)

  1. Munkyman

    There’s a good chance that much of this has to do with the season… I obviously don’t know for sure. Swelling & inflammation are both a bigger problem when it’s hot & humid.

    July 13, 2017
    1. Bettymom

      I hadn’t thought of that, but I think you’re right. So, if I can just get through summer …

      July 13, 2017
  2. rebecca2013

    so sorry Chica…. hope you are better soon

    July 13, 2017
  3. thoroughlyrandom

    I’m sorry your knee is so bad. My husband needs a replacement but they don’t want to do one on someone in his 30’s because it needs to be replaced so often once it’s done. He’s a big boy. 6’4 and 450 lbs. I would rather push you in a wheelchair than him!

    July 13, 2017
    1. Bettymom

      I’m not a small person. I won’t go into details; just know that I am larger than the average bear.

      July 13, 2017
      1. thoroughlyrandom

        Me too! My doctor is most displeased with me.

        July 13, 2017
        1. Bettymom

          My doctor seldom mentions my weight – which is odd. Once in a while she will say something like, “Just cut your portions in half.” She can’t possibly even weight 100 lb. If she weren’t so sweet, I’d hate her!

          July 13, 2017
          1. thoroughlyrandom

            Mine wouldn’t weigh 100 if she were soaking wet and wearing a cannon ball.

            July 13, 2017
  4. depressedgirl

    I am so sorry you are in so much pain. Is this your new knee or your old one that is not replaced. Can’t you get shots or pain meds? I hope you feel better.

    July 13, 2017
    1. Bettymom

      The present problem is with the old knee that is not replaced. I think it got really tired and overused while I was recovering from the other one being replaced. The replacement knee is really doing great!

      July 14, 2017
      1. depressedgirl

        Great about the replaced knee.

        July 15, 2017
  5. belladora

    So sad reading this. I know it is so difficult to be so strong. Just remember you are strong and determined. Faith woman.

    July 14, 2017
    1. Bettymom

      I just had a bad day. Usually I’m not such a crybaby! Yes, I do remember how strong and determined I am!!

      July 14, 2017
      1. belladora

        I certainly remember. A bad day is just that, a bad day. The weather makes my knees hurt like crazy. Humidity or rain..yuk. Hope you have better days.

        July 15, 2017
  6. muley12

    Sorry to hear you are in pain. May I recommend turmeric? It helps with the pain, and helps the joints. Put a heaping teaspoon in 8oz. of whole milk, with a dash of black pepper. Try this 2 or 3 times a day.

    July 16, 2017
    1. Bettymom

      We never buy whole milk. Are you sure 2% won’t work?

      July 16, 2017
      1. muley12

        The problem is your body will pass the cucumin in the turmeric unless it has fats to absorb it. Take a couple of 1200 mg fish oils, and some black pepper with your 2%. This will help with abortion on this need chemical.

        July 22, 2017
  7. sarahb1218

    Sorry you’re having difficulty with knee pain. I do hope that improves real soon. ❤

    July 16, 2017
    1. Bettymom

      It’s a lot better now that the damp weather has passed!

      July 16, 2017